It’s
funny how things can seem to turn around so quickly in life (or a
political campaign for that matter). It always seemed to me that
often when you start to feel a little too comfortable (or complacent)
about the way things in your life are working out, something really
bad jumps up and bites you in the butt. Maybe the problem is that
life feels begins to feel a little under appreciated and needs to
give us warning never to become too confident about where it's going.
Maybe it's that we should never ignore that little uncomfortable
feeling in the back of our head, because it's a sure sign of
potential misplaced overconfidence. Whatever the case might be,
whatever good could be said about how things had gone in the first
month of the campaign, they went just that bad in the second. It
wasn't that we were doing anything any different than we had from the
start, but it was certainly the case that our outcomes had changed.
It sometimes seemed that we were little more spectators to a
disaster happening to us, rather than participants in it. If you
think that seems like a confusing statement, consider what it was
like living through it.
Maybe
we had just gotten cocky, or too caught up in our initial successes
to see the storm that we should have known was on the way. Maybe we
were a little new to what we were doing or too naive and
inexperienced about the entire political process. Maybe we just
hadn’t given the devil (with Christy, Randall, or both, cast as the
main character of that drama) his due. Whatever the reason, we all
certainly got a PhD education (Piled Higher and Deeper) in the
science of exceptionally dirty politics during that next thirty days
of the campaign, with a rather formidable dose of day-to-day crisis
resolution thrown in just to keep it interesting. If that weren’t
enough, there seemed to be a lot of just plain bad karma on a
personal level dished out for everyone involved with the campaign.
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It
started simply enough, with a problem that we knew had to come
eventually; that of Phillip not wanting the job that we were trying
to get him. Knowing that it was on the horizon, we thought that we
were prepared for it. We had all of our responses prepared, and had
them out in speeches and as hand outs immediately:
- While never seeking office for himself, Phillip felt a moral obligation to see that the people of Macundo were properly served, and that’s why he now sought the office.
- This system was not about what Phillip wanted, based on what the electoral process involved; but on what the people of Macundo didn’t want, and who would want Christy.
- Christy, like his father, was a power-seeking fiend whose only goal was to take control of the government for his own ends. As such, he should be rejected out of hand. Phillip’s motives were personal, but not evil, and he was now willing to do a job that needed to be done.
- Christy didn’t want the job either, and would never have sought to be king except at his father’s demand that he do so. Was it not his father who had forced the government into letting him into an election that he never wanted to be part of in the first place?
As
I said, this was something that we anticipated. We had even thought
about putting this one to bed before we were hit with it, but decided
that the best course was not to draw attention to the problem
ourselves. It was felt that speaking about it ourselves would make
it an even bigger issue than it was, and ultimately make it an even
bigger story. We resolved therefore to wait until confronted by the
opposition. This opinion, though held by the majority, was
ultimately a rookie mistake however; because it took the timing of
the defense of our candidate out of our hands and put into the hands
of our enemies. As we all too quickly discovered, all of the
preparation in the world doesn’t help you contain a disaster when
your response is reactive rather than proactive.
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In
the time that it took a few days to get our story out we lost some
ground in the polls; but we knew that we were going to and had plenty
to spare. Our people worked the story as they were supposed to, and
we managed to get back on message in a little more than a week.
Having done so, we thought that we had weathered the biggest part of
the storm and that we had things back under control. Seeing
ourselves as “The Little Dutch Boy” who managed to to plug the
holed in the dyke by sticking his finger in it, we thought the
problem solved. Little did we know that this was only the first
crack in a dam that was about to burst. The ensuing flood that
occurred when it did was devastating on a number of levels to the
campaign, and to a number of the members of our staff on a much more
personal basis.
What
occurred next was something that none of us could have anticipated,
and began when Andy’s print shop burned to the ground. This
unexpected calamity was a major short-term setback for the campaign
obviously, as there were a number of different kinds of campaign
literature and materials in storage at the shop at the time of the
fire; but these were things that could and would be replaced given
time. Andy, though devastated by the loss, put his personal
situation aside and immediately set to work finding a new building
and begging or borrowing equipment to get started again. His efforts
seemed to be achieving some level of success, and it looked like we
wouldn’t lose as much as much ground as we thought, when the arson
stories started circulating.
It
turned out that Andy hadn’t been in the best financial situation
when he had begun working for and with us. While not on the edge of
bankruptcy, he had been only barely holding some of his creditors at
bay for some time before our work had come along. The campaign work
it seems, would have more than kept his creditors at arms length; but
would not put him on a firm financial footing any time soon. Andy
would have been able stay in business, but never turn a profit at the
rate that he was going unless something else happened to improve is
business situation. The insurance settlement when everything was
destroyed however, would not only pay off his debts it appeared, but
make him a fair bit of profit as well. When it further came to light
that Andy had enough insurance that the settlement, once paid off,
would be enough that Andy would never really have to work again.
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The
investigators of both the fire department and the insurance company
crawled over the scene for a week, preventing Andy from even going in
to see if any part of the business’s assets or the campaign’s
material in storage could be salvaged. Pictures of a soot-stained
Andy standing in the midst of his ruined business played well in the
press, (especially the tabloid press) and it was only a matter of
time before the campaign got dragged into the investigation, as well
as the growing scandal of the story.
As
the days passed, we were all questioned by both groups of
investigators. How well did we know Andy? Why did we give him the
business from the campaign? Were we aware of the financial condition
of his company at the time that we began to do business with him?
What did we know about the insurance that he carried on the business?
Where was each of us at the time that the fire occurred?
As
the keeper of our books, Misha in particular caught a great deal of
heat over the situation, and was pressed by investigators for detail
regarding the rates that he charged us, the payments that she made to
Andy, and where that money had subsequently gone. We quickly went
from being short one person on staff, to being short two, as more and
more of her time was required by the investigation. In addition,
the insurance company latched onto the ensuing investigation as a way
to delay any payment on the policy for some reason. Andy’s
troubles had become a lot more complex than any of us had
anticipated, and the bottom line was that he was not going to be back
in business producing material for the campaign nearly as quickly as
we thought.
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In
the midst of going over the details of the financial records for the
investigation of Andy, Misha made another startling discovery. It
also now appeared that some campaign funds were unaccounted for. It
wasn’t that it was a great deal of money, but in light of the other
investigations, such a discrepancy was a serious concern to both
Misha and the government agency that she worked for. She went back
and rechecked all of the weekly audits of the campaign, and we
questioned everyone internally of course; but couldn’t see why the
books didn’t add up. For Misha’s part, though she was firmly in
our camp, there was never any question that she would try to cover
any part of this situation up, or that we would even ask her to. She
checked her figures ten times over, but after coming to the same
conclusion each time, she filed the required reports about the
missing funds with the government.
As
with any type of government audit, this was going to mean that she
would need to spend a good bit of time away from us going over all of
the financial details since the campaign had begun with the auditing
bureaucracy. Added to the loss of her time that we suffered from the
investigations of Andy, and it meant that for all intents and
purposes, we had lost the use of Misha in the campaign as well. You
might not imagine that the loss of a finance person could slow us
down, but it did so rather considerably. Without her, we could not
draw on the government funds which required her signature, and she
wasn’t there to give it as often or as soon as we would have liked.
She did her best to try not to let these investigations impede the
progress; but she could only do so much. We in turn would have to do
the best that we could in the interim, and would just have to learn
to work around it.
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The
bureaucratic mind is the once constant in the universe, and one
should always take into account the pronunciation of the last
syllable when dealing with 'officialdom'. Given the opportunity,
government officials can undoubtedly quote you chapter and verse on
regulations that can and will prevent you from doing anything and
everything (including listening to them drone on in an endless and
nauseating fashion). Having attached themselves to you like any
other leech, these parasites will continue to drain one of time,
resources, and eventually the will to live; until surfeited in a
stodgy show of self-importance or physically separated from their
host (usually by drastic measures), at last allowing escape.
It
may similarly be said that the difference between bureaucracy and
'bureau-crazy' is but a single letter; and they should be treated
with equal parts of caution and disdain. Most bureaucrats operate
from a combination of mono-maniacal tendencies and Napoleonic
complexes. The anger that lies just below the surface of petty
officials stems from not only working on a daily basis with the
government, but actually enjoying the experience. A while no one has
ever been accused of 'going bureaucrat', they should be treated with
the same trepidation as a postal worker with a concealed carry
permit.
As
these reports were inevitably made available to the public (though of
course most of them were supposed to be confidential), it was only a
matter of time before they too made it to the front page of the
newspapers. It seemed that we were above the fold every day, but
never for any of the reasons that we wanted.
For
those of the uninitiated, the phrase ‘above the fold’ means that
the story is on page one of the newspaper, right below the banner
(name of the newspaper) and its main headlines, but above where a
broadsheet newspaper is ‘folded’ in half. This is usually the
place where the key stories of the day are placed, with additional
follow up articles following later in the paper.
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The
headline ‘Scandal Continues to Rock Phillip’s Campaign’ seemed
to be appearing with a growing regularity in all of the newspapers of
Macundo, leaving us so discouraged that most of us simply stopped
reading newspapers. The initial enthusiasm of the entire campaign
staff began to flag under the weight of these seemingly endless
scandals; and we all seemed to be walking around with our heads down,
waiting for the next blow to be struck. Phillip, unable to defend or
even comment on this turn of events while being in hiding, became
rather exasperated with the whole experience and joined us less often
for the morning meetings.
We
soldiered on however, trying to figure out a way to dig ourselves out
of a sink hole that had appeared and was growing around us. When
our third loss in senior staff occurred, we were not only taken by
surprise, but completely devastated. Out of the blue, Katie was sued
for plagiarism for a story that she had done for the Minica (capital
city of Macundo) newspaper years ago.
Quite
frankly, the whole thing didn’t make any sense. The story was a
minor local piece that no one had ever bothered to pick up
nationally, and was of no real import. Both she and I originally
thought nothing of it at first and chose to mostly ignore it. This
ignorance proved both wrong and costly, as we were soon to find out.
It turned out in fact, that the charges stemming from this would have
to be vigorously defended, Katie explained to us almost tearfully
soon afterward. Not only was Katie a person who was forced to live
and die on her reputation, a reputation that had now been sullied;
but the penalties for what had seemed to us to be a petty charge at
best were serious indeed. The law of the land took the view that
such a crime such as this was to be treated no differently from any
other kind of theft; the punishment for which, if she were convicted,
would involve prison time and a fine, as well as any potential civil
settlement of damages with her accuser.
It
seemed that there was nothing that we could do but watch helplessly
from the sidelines as yet another train wreck occurred in our small
family. Katie's attention and effort was taken from us, and directed
to going back over the research for an insignificant event that she
had long since forgotten. Before any of us had begun to realize it,
that research and the preparation with her attorney for her defense
in this case (criminal and civil) began to take up most of Katie’s
time.
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Looking
back at it now, we don’t appear to have been very quick on the
uptake, picking up on what even the most blind could not help but
see; but at long last, we began to see the pattern. We realized that
what we were looking at was a masterstroke of political strategy on
Christy’s part. If you haven't got anything that you can attack
the candidate with, attack the campaign staff instead. Key members
of a staff in our campaign against Randall’s family were one by one
isolated from their campaign work and obligated to spend time
defending themselves instead of working for our candidate. Without
directly attacking our candidate, Christy had managed to attack our
campaign and reduce its effectiveness significantly. The plan was
both ingenious and diabolical, and the truly aggravating part of
realizing its strategy was that it was an obvious retread of his
previous efforts (if a non-violent one) that none of us had
anticipated. We thought that we understood the people that we were
up against and the depths to which they would sink, but we were
finding that we were obviously and terribly wrong. They had gone
down what might have been an old, familiar path to them to a low that
we were incapable of conceiving of.
The
campaign was not yet in complete shambles, but the difference was a
near thing indeed; and we were struggled daily to plug the gaps that
were showing. I made misguided attempts to step into some of the
responsibilities that Katie had been taking care of for the campaign
with her staff while we were trying to sort all this out, but quickly
found myself unequal to the challenge. They say that you only
appreciate the talent that person has for a job when you try and step
into their shoes. I quickly found that these shoes were too big for
me.
Katie
had been working for us not only as a writer, but also as a manager.
It was one thing to dabble into writing, as I had done from time to
time as the campaign progressed. It was quite another thing to
supervise a staff of writers for a campaign. Adding or changing a
line with a group of professional writers was a task like nothing
that I found myself saddled with before. They were all wonderfully
creative people, and genuinely liked each other, but the gloves came
off with each other when meetings of the writing staff started. Each
person had a multitude of ideas that they wanted to see used and a
multitude of criticisms for ideas that they had not come up with.
They were particularly brutal and often personal in these attacks,
and it made me wonder if all creative people were such a pain in the
ass.
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This
seems to be the case with creative people for the most part though
doesn’t it? Leonardo Di Vinci, genius that he was, was rumored to
be a tyrant with both his staff and his patrons. That Michelangelo
was a pain in the butt to Pope Julius II when painting the Sistine
Chapel is an undisputed fact of history that was even used as a
central theme in a movie about his life, ‘The Agony and the
Ecstasy’. Authors Charles Dickens, Jules Vern, and H. G. Wells as
examples, though all geniuses, appeared to be no joy to be married to
according to those familiar with the stories of their lives. Even
the two great giants of physics, Isaac Newton and Albert Einstein
were said to be real bastards to their friends, enemies, and spouses
alike. Maybe the truly creative person is so caught up in their own
apparently brilliant insights into the universe that they have no
time to suffer lesser fools or greater geniuses. On the other hand,
maybe they, like most of the rest of us, are simply just assholes;
with their genius simply putting them on a larger stage and excusing
some part of their rudeness.
As
for the group that I was dealing with, I began to feel like the
referee at an ultimate fighting match. I was constantly on the
lookout for trouble, and seemed constantly to be trying to keep
things from coming to actual blows during these supposed gatherings
of creativity. It’s not that I mind a good fight now and again (I
am Irish after all, and as long as it serves a purpose and does not
personally involve me ...), but I felt that any trips to the hospital
for repairs afterward would delay the work unnecessarily. I was
therefore pleased to see that while it often came close, that the
gloves never actually came off.
In
the end, I found myself forced to send them off either individually,
or in small teams, with instructions to bring back something for me
to look at. While I allowed some discussion of the results of those
teams in a general session, I strictly controlled both the time and
the tone of that discussion. In the end, that left the final
decision about what ultimately got used in the campaign to me. Now
for those of you unfamiliar with such meetings, this meant that the
only point of agreement in those final sessions was that everyone
strongly agreed that they hated my guts. This left me with a general
feeling of listlessness, and a desire to run screaming from the room
before I did bodily harm to the people that I was supposed to
leading.
Just
when I thought that it couldn’t get any worse, of course it did.
The rash of scandals in our midst inevitably led to comparisons in
the press between this campaign and the last one in the country’s
history. These comparisons fed the appetites of readers that the
tabloid press catered especially to, and the increased circulation
garnered by this vulture-like behavior saw them soon dredging up all
of the old stories involving of the murder of Angela’s father.
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While there was no direct accusation of scandal leveled, there was a
definite tone of ‘like father, like son’ to these stories.
'Since there had been scandal (and murder) associated with Phillip’s
father’s campaign, why should anyone be surprised to see the same
type of behavior in Phillip’s campaign' went the story line. That
no one took notice of the fact that Simon had two sons, and that none
of this was being cast in Christy and his father’s direction was
not particularly surprising (at least to us) considering how we saw
the whole thing as being orchestrated by Randall anyway.
As
the salient facts of the original murder were printed, along with a
number of rather grisly and graphic photos of the crime scene. This
was followed by a blow-by-blow description of Simon’s trial and the
effect that it had on the campaign at the time. Again, it was
suspicious that the facts that the inconsistencies in the evidence
that would lead one to the conclusion that the whole thing had been
manufactured never seemed to enter into the story; nor the acquittal
of Phillip’s father of any and all of the charges. His subsequent
victory in the election (or rather, Randall’s loss) also seemed to
be deemed non-newsworthy by these so-called ‘gentlemen of the
press’.
The
effect that it had on the campaign was incremental at best. It was a
juicy story for the newspapers, and it certainly seemed to paint our
gang in a less than favorable light; but it had little or nothing to
do with our present situation. Besides, we were already so deep in
the natural fertilizer that had been dumped on us, that even with the
addition of the latest batch; we barely notice a change in the smell.
The
effect that all of the dredging up of all of this ancient history had
on Angela was something else entirely. Initially she was angered by
the fact that it was being brought up at all, let alone the
implications that were being put forth in these stories. She found
it all but unbelievable that anyone couldn't see through this pack of
lies, that anyone would believe that she would be so involved with
the campaign if she thought that Phillip’s family had anything to
do with her father’s death. The stories were only the beginning of
the tale here though. Without any real warning, the situation soon
became a non-stop nightmare for her. No longer content with
rehashing old news to feed the appetites of their readers, reporters
and photographers followed her everywhere. The inevitable questions
about how she felt today about her father, Phillip’s family, the
military, and politics in general in light of all of the events that
had occurred in her life were as inane as they were persistent. The
process was obsessive, intrusive, and completely amoral in its
unrelenting pressure on her.
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The
questions that reporters ask often fascinate me. I took some
journalism in school and remember that it was supposed to be all
about the: who, what, when, where, and why of a newspaper story. Why
then, do reporters feel that they must give up their humanity in the
process of remaining what they seem to consider objective about a
story? How can anyone who has ever made the claim to be a human
being stand in front of the relative of a victim of a crime,
especially one involving a fatality, and ask them how they ‘feel’
about it? Even if the person being interviewed were in a state of
mind to be able to give a coherent answer, what would the reporter
expect? “Oh I liked the victim well enough, but I’m not sorry to
see them gone. The truth is that they burped after dinner every
night and often farted while reading the newspaper. It drove me
crazy!” Or maybe, “I won’t really know how I feel about all of
this until I find out how well I will be making out in the will.”
I’m
sure that at one time or another, some grieving relative has
undoubtedly told them, “I feel awful you stupid idiot! What kind
of question is that to ask someone who has just lost everything that
they ever loved? Why would you even ask such a question you filthy
vulture?” I am also sure that any such quotes never made it onto
page one. No, the truth of the matter is that it is only important
to most of these carrion feeders to get a picture of the
grief-stricken people with that ‘deer in the headlights’ look on
their face and tears running down their face on the front of
tomorrow’s paper.
I
know from personal experience that they got an earful from Angela in
the process. She took after reporters like a lioness protecting her
cubs. She tried for some degree of civility at the start, answering
with courtesy all of the hideous questions being asked, and treating
those asking with a restrained level of dignity. The constant
barrage of interviews soon wore her down however, and she soon began
to treat them as she felt that they were treating her. Some of the
replies that I heard would have embarrassed a sailor, but that
attitude on her part only made me more proud of her.
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I
will not repeat any of those particular responses, no matter how many
times that I am asked. I will say however, that they were truly
memorable in their profound and creative use of expletives. Katie
told me that even she was both surprised and impressed by the
demonstration of Angela’s language skills. The person involved in
this case is one that I still care very deeply about, and I will not
seek to embarrass a woman that consider a true lady by repeating any
of those things here, knowing that such repetition, while amusing,
might carry the potential to shed an unfavorable light on her in some
way (though never in my opinion). Besides, I would rather tweak the
noses of those of you demanding the nasty particulars involved. I
ask instead that you use your imagination to fill in the blanks here.
Who knows you might even come close, but I doubt it.
I
stood by Angela as often and as much as she let me, listening quietly
to her tears and her curses while holding her close. My level of
frustration eventually reached her own however, and I offered
satisfaction to a few of the more obnoxious and belligerent of these
‘Gentlemen of the Press’. None of them took me up on it, I'm
sorry to have to say, as I was really looking for an excuse to vent
some of the frustration and hostility that I was feeling. I was not
normally a rash person, but this situation was causing me to become
truly interested in the dueling laws of this land. (The fact that I
had been taking practice at both sword and pistol with Phillip every
day for exercise may have falsely inflated my confidence in this
area. I choose however, to take note only of my gallant behavior
where the honor of the woman that I love was concerned.)
In the end, I was never permitted the chance to tell her of my feelings about her attackers. The constant pestering of the interviews finally drove her from our midst. At first is was simply that she stopped attending our meetings and locked herself in her rooms at the Manor; her anger and frustration having reached a point where she didn't leave it, even for meals. She didn't or couldn't share these feelings and frustration even with me. Eventually even that type of evasion was not enough for her however, and I awoke one morning to find a not shoved beneath my door.
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Sean,
I’m
sorry, but I find that I am not strong enough to deal with this
anymore. What this has become is not doing the campaign, or us, any
good. I don’t think that I can take the pressure of it any more.
Please
don’t think ill of me, but I need to go away for a time and sort
all this out. I do love you, but I just can’t be with you right
now.
All
My Love,
Angela
Her
note was as crushing a blow as you might imagine, and I was both
literally and figuratively staggered by it. The campaign was going
down the tubes with a flushing sound so loud and distinct that I am
sure that there were plumbers all over the country checking their
answering machines for an emergency call. Four people from our inner
circle, whose importance to our mission and its success could not be
estimated, had been all but taken from our staff. Their loss to me
on a professional level was overwhelming, and made the daunting task
ahead even harder to face. The loss of these friends (and lovers) on
a personal level was devastating in a way that I was having more than
a little trouble dealing with.
The
way that things were going with this campaign at the moment probably
meant that Macundo would end up with people of such evil in positions
of authority that Hitler would have turned them down as recruits for
his staff as being just a trifle too twisted. On a more personal
level, and though it meant nothing to the campaign; my personal life,
(never usually a thing to impress anyone who wasn’t living under a
vow of silence and chastity in a monastery at the time) was
completely shattered by all of this. The woman that I loved was gone
to who knows where, and who knew if I would ever see her again. If
all of that were not bad enough, I was failing at the job that I was
supposed to be doing, and nothing that I did seemed to be able to
change that.
The
depression that hung like a cloud over me as I stood there in my room
at that moment took me to a point I could have easily contemplated
suicide, even if it meant that it needed to be done by bleeding out
by way of paper cuts. I was only saved from this particularly
gruesome form of demise in the end by the fact that I thought that
based on recent history, I would probably screw that up too. I was
therefore in a painfully bad mood as I left the note in my room, and
made my way to another morning meeting; one that I had no real heart
for. My feet seemed
to be too heavy to lift as I made my way down the hall to the
conference room that we had taken over as a command center since that
first morning. Looking in on those trusting, expectant faces as I
reached our normal gather place, I found all of almost too much to
bear.
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“Meeting
canceled,” I fumed suddenly at the stunned group as I stood in the
doorway. “due to a complete lack of interest on the part of the
boss. If any of you have anything that you feel that you absolutely
must speak to me about, please feel free to hang around while I get
myself some coffee. I can’t guarantee that I’m will give a damn
about anything that you have to say, but I promise to least give you
the courtesy of hearing you out before blowing you off.”
Shocked
looks made their way around the room as I continued in, and chairs
began scraping to announce embarrassed departures. The room emptied
rather quickly as I busied myself pouring some coffee, but it seemed
like a few stuck around. I wasn’t really paying attention. I
hadn’t noticed when I walked in whether the place cards that I was
used to were there or not, or who’s names where on them; but they
weren’t when I turned back to the table. It was only when I looked
for the closest empty chair that I noticed Phillip and Lorelei still
sitting at the places that Angela and I had been occupying since
their latest round of absences. I nodded in embarrassed
acknowledgment to them as I slumped into a chair, staring at a
beverage that I realized that I didn’t really want any more.
Arturo slipped up next to me, and nudged my hand with his nose. A
dog will always seem to do this when it knows that you are sad, as if
getting your attention will help. I’m not sure, but I think that
dogs do in fact know something that we don’t. I began to scratch
his neck absently and somehow it did seem to help. The rhythmic
movement involved with paying attention to him rather than focusing
on my own problems, and seemed slowly to bring me back into the room.
“We
know about Angela,” Phillip said. “She stopped by to say
good-bye to Lorelei and myself before she left this morning.”
“Well
that’s more than she did with me,” I replied bitterly. “I did
get a lovely note however.” I knew it wasn’t fair as it came out
of my mouth, but I was hurt and wasn’t much interested in fair at
the moment.
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“Sean,”
he sighed, “You have no idea how hard bringing this all up again
has been for her. The pressure of the campaign and the hounding of
the reporters just finally got to her more than she ever thought that
it could. Sean, you must know better than anyone that she has never
really gotten over her father’s death.”
“I
know. I know all that. I just thought that it would be easier for
her to deal with if we did it together. I thought that’s what you
do when you’re in love with someone. I know that it’s tough on
her and I know that I should understand, but it’s tough on me too
and I’m not sure that I really do understand. Things are going to
hell around here, and I need her as much as I think that she needs
me. Why doesn’t she understand that?”
“Maybe
she does, or at least she will sometime soon,” Lorelei replied,
stepping in. “But whatever she does, you need to accept it.
That’s love too.”
“I
know, I know. I’m being a self-centered baby about this. I know
that I need to grow up. I need to understand her feelings, to ‘leave
the cage door open so that the bird can return’, and to be
understanding of her situation. It’s just that I am having a
little bit of a problem being a good guy right now folks. As much as
I want to do all of the right things here, I have to tell you that
all I really want to do right now is go back to my bed and pull the
covers over my head until this all ends.”
“I
can understand that Sean, and goodness knows that I have had my share
of times when I wanted to do the same, and did,” Phillip put in.
“I also know that hasn’t done any good. I know that I haven’t
been much good to the campaign lately either, but that has to change
for both of us. So here is what you and I are going to do. You are
going to go back to your room and pack a bag. With the way that we
are short-staffed we need you to go out on the campaign trail and
help turn this thing around. Don’t worry about directing the staff
here at the Manor. I will take over again here and do what I can to
hold the troops together.
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I
am also going to break with tradition to some degree and send Lorelei
out to speak to the people, and I need you to help and assist her in
as many ways as you can. Katie has set up an eight-city swing of
speeches for the two of you to make. At each of these cities, one of
you will need to speak to a group of people (probably Lorelei), and
will need to be persuasive. The other will need to work with our
local staffs of volunteers to keep their spirits up.
Sean,
this trouble that we are going through is Randall’s work, plain and
simple. He thinks to be able to defeat us by separating us from the
strength that we hold as a group. I know that I too have been
discouraged recently; enough so that I thought to abandon the goal
that we had set for ourselves. But I know now that I was wrong to
think this way. We are strong together because we are each strong.
It is that strength, which we have all recognized and counted on in
the past that has seen us through, and to which we must return to and
build upon. Far too often, evil in the world wins not because it is
stronger, but because good loses hope. We must choose not to lose
that hope while even one of us survives, nor can we surrender to the
evil of our enemy without at least fighting the battle.”
'This
was pretty powerful stuff,' I thought as I listened to him speak.
Was it bullshit? There was certainly that chance that it was, but
underneath there was a ring of truth to it as well. Was it
inspirational bullshit regardless? Definitely!
“OK,
my prince,” I replied standing, and striking hand to chest in that
classic gladiator salute and with a rather weak smile making an
appearance. “I shall take up sword and armor and do battle with
the evil forces that stand before us. I shall ride off in quest to
slay the dragon plaguing our land, though it cost me my very life in
hopes again of winning the fair damsel.”
“Good
Sean,” he said. “I knew that I could always count on you, and
maybe some day, I’ll be able to properly reward you for all of
this. In the meantime, I can only say thank you. Everything will be
ready when you are. But Sean, before you go, could you tell me one
thing please. What’s a dragon?”
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